welcome home ! :D

haha ,heyy whats up guys ? -.-' heee..setelah sekian lama aku mematikan blog aku nie ,sekarang tiba masanya utk aku hidupkan ia semula :D haha .aku sebenarnya tak tahu apa motif aku happy sgt nie? -.-' hehe ! maybe cuz aku dah rasa bebas kot? alhamdulilah (: cuz aku dapat kembali ke realiti ,setelah sekiannya aku rasa mcm tak hidup ..arrghh ! suffer gila !! ahh hah hah ! aku tak nak ingat balik -..-' swear ! mmg aku tak nak ingat or fikir again benda yg lepas. haihh ! huhu .
   
              second thing aku dah bersama someone yg sgt aku sayang :D my teddy BEAR ! omggoshh ! ilove you lah .muahh muahh ! xD heee .i never let you down (: insha allah ,and thanks a lot too for my brother cuz dah memberi kepercayaan kpd aku utk kali ini .hee :D *aku berjanji yg aku akan jaga maruah aku dan tak kan menghampakan parents or family aku (: yeahh !
ciao~ (;

ops , selamat hari raya !

yeayy raya ;D

“Adakah dia betul-betul sudah tak ingin bersama aku lagi? Tak ingin berkawan dan bertegur sama aku lagi? ): atau pun dia sengaja menjauhi kan diri semata-mata ingin memberikan peluang kepada aku untuk bersama lelaki lain ..tidak kah dia mempunyai walau sedikit pun perasaan kepada aku selama ini? Sungguh ku tak sangka rupa-rupanya cinta aku ini hanya bertepuk sebelah tangan sahaja ..bila lah aku akan dapat seorang yang dah jatuh hati dan kemudiannya cinta itu berbalas?” *WONDERING -.-‘

Sedih sungguh perasaan ini ,aku ingat bila berada di dunia university ini sama seperti di zaman persekolahan dahulu ..swear ! tetapi malangnya mmg tak ku duga ,lain sekali ..huh ..mmg banyak dugaan bila aku duduk sini ,sumpah ! aku tak sangka ! pertama kali aku tension pastu menganggu studies aku doe -.-‘ *klu mama tahu ,mati aku mesti aku tak boleh berada di sini lagi..dan aku rasa mmg betul Allah nak tunjuk kan bahawa kata ibu sgt benar .. tak ape laaa ,ada rezeki aku sambung dekat tempat yg mama suruh aku masuk toh (‘: hurmm..
Aku harap satu hari nanti Allah akan berikan aku seorang lelaki yang sama seperti dia (: *amin ..dia punya ciri-ciri yang boleh buat aku happy :D can make me laugh ,entertain me .huhuhu ..and can always make me fall in love everytime we meet ♥ aww ! *krikk krikk XD OVER PULAK ! HAHAHA ! but I will never forget the first person that remember me of him (‘: swear its true ..thanks for the great memories that we share even it short .lalala~ ♪ *crying

Looking back on everything,
I still remember his smile.
I wish things didn't end so soon,
And turn back time for awhile.

No matter how much it hurts,
I still love him so.
A part of me needs him so much,
Can't seem to let him go.

Knowing I won't be able to see him,
Makes my heart cry out in pain.
I can't believe we won't talk anymore,
The thought makes me wanna go insane.

He was my reason for waking up,
For the smile you see on my face.
Going a single day without him,
Makes me feel so out of place.

I was afraid of opening up,
Now I'm afraid of the next day.
Whenever I see him one last time,
I'm terrified of what he may say.

I know tomorrow will hurt,
But the tears will fade away.
Life is too short for regrets,
There will be a brighter day.

But when I see him one last time,
I won't know what to do...
When he tells me that last goodbye,
I'll whisper,"I already miss you.."

dear diary

hari ini aku buat hal lagi -.-' aduii ,firstly cuz aku tak pergi class en.saad .secondly ,hari nie sepatutunya ada presentation dlm class tapi aku tak pergi *buat penat je stay-up sampai subuh and kesian kawan aku cuz bersusah payah tolong buat kan powerpoint toh  (T,T) sob sob .gela kentang ! argghh! thirdly ,ini pula masa class petang dgn pak wan  ..err ,aku mmg tak akan buat assignment dea cuz aku tak minat satu pun pasal muzium nie apetah lagi melawat sane .haha ! XD aku buat and hantar report dia -.-' even aku tahu ramai dikalangan kawan aku yg buat report toh secara haram *sama ada copy paste or reka sendiri .errkk ,aku tak pandai lah nak buat mcm toh ,swear ! aduii..entah bila lah aku boleh hantar benda alah toh? krikk krikk -.-' nasib lah pak wan kasi masa lagi :P sayangg pak wan! xp huahuahua .lalala ~ *siapkan aisyah !! grrr 

Every day it is similar You are cheery And so am I Our terrible lie Can you imagine a time When we awoke and did not speak Realizing our moods would cause tension Tension caused by too little life? I do wish sometimes As I leave for work sullenly Dreading the day already Weeping far within The lie, terrible and unending Would cease to be And I would know the real you And you the real me But, the lie drags on for now For it is not written in the stars And perhaps it will never be I am my own companion The dreaded truth Gathered in a lifetime Sentenced for an eternity Realized too late

cinta dalam hati :')